Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Heart's Attack

My heart was not in the mood to celebrate World Heart Day. Instead it was celebrating Navratri so as to get blessings from gods and goddesses for its health and long life. I don’t know how long my heart will be loyal to me. My heart wants to attack me even if I don’t do anything and thrash me to the bed every now and then. But it compromise and tries to get along with this madcap, me. No wonder if heart goes erratic, it has been working constantly for 55 long years. Heart is a natural pump. Any other man-made water pump cannot work for so long. This nature-made pump also will get damaged like any other man-made pump. Some don’t get good heart at birth. Manufacturing defect is possible while making any machine. Nature also makes mistakes sometimes.

I have been living with arrhythmia for 10 years. It started all of a sudden as a twitching and getting severe with years. I know there is no cure and have learnt to live with it without any medical treatment or medicine. Any medicine I take for other ailments aggravate the problem. I can do at least some household chores now. If I go for treatment, I know I will become a vegetable.


My heart tells me,
Don’t say anything
Don’t see anything
Don’t hear anything
Don’t laugh, don’t cry
Don’t think about anything
Don’t do anything at all
Without me you are a dummy
Your life is in my hands
I cannot support you for ever
I am weak and old
If you don’t listen I will leave you forever
But I don’t pay heed.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

The Power of Vani

A quote from Shri Buddha’s philosophy-
“O Atula! This is an old rule-not just the rule of today. They blame him who sits silent; they even blame him who speaks little. Atula, there is none in the world who is not blamed.
Fear of criticism is like a great divider. Those who have overcome it are the successful ones.


Why do we criticize? Is it an instinct? Doesn’t seem so. Does anybody have a right to criticize anybody? Anyone is not perfect to criticize others. It is a compulsive habit of humans. Animal don’t criticize each other. Why? They haven’t learnt to talk. The fault is that languages have been made for communication and our convenience. Otherwise, how would have we spoken—a, aa, e, ee, u, uoo? If we hadn’t learned to talk, when we lose temper, we would have fought like animals instead of waiting for a verbal fight.

Criticism comes out of hatred and jealousy. We criticize those whom we hate or those who hate us or it is just a time pass for some. Those who criticize others cannot take the bullet when it backfires. “I can criticize everybody, you cannot criticize me,” this is the common mentality of people. Such one way thinking creates all problems. Be good or bad, anyone will not escape criticism. Some are always a target of it. As long as your words and deeds are good you don't have to fear criticizm. Some harmless gossip is OK. My criticism is harmless, I think. I have this genetic mental disorder—making pun. I don’t find any cure for it, even for my arrhythmia. But I don’t make fun of anybody. Making fun and making pun is quite different.

Vani has a divine power since it is ruled by Vak devi. So we should not misuse the Vani. Words can unite, words can separate. Toh, jabaan sambhal ke……

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Season for Butterflies

Butterflies are pretty things
Prettier than you or I
See the colours on its wings
Who would hurt a butterfly?

I don’t remember the poet who wrote this poem. The poet seems to be sympathetic towards butterflies. I think only poets and I can see their beauty. Others don’t seem to care about them. As the poet said, "who would hurt a butterfly," I haven't seen anybody, even birds and animals hurt butterflies. These multi-coloured winged creatures attract me. I waste my time to watch them. Butterflies come to the window-sill plants and lay eggs on them. So I can watch their metamorphosis. Farmers hate them because these winged creatures have the strength to destroy their crops. They will destroy them instead by spraying pesticides on plants. Farmers find their crops more beautiful than butterflies. How selfish human beings are! We, human take advantage of the earth maximum. Butterflies need food plants to lay their eggs. They lay the eggs under the leaves so as to protect them from weather and the leaves make food for the larvae. Their survival sense is surprisingly great. But only a few eggs hatch out of thousands of them. There are butterflies barely half inch in size. One could be mistaken them for moths. Moths are different in looks and habit. They are not attractive as butterflies. Butterflies are good to look at, not good to touch. the delicate wings will easily come off and the powdery substance on the wings will stick on the hands.
Autumn is the season for butterflies, also a season for all kinds and coloured flowers. That’s why people in Kerala make rangolis with different coloured flowers for the Onam festival. I sense the autumn dry weather pulling my skin. Fire-flies also appear in this season. With the onset of the autumn many different coloured butterflies that came out fresh from the cocoons can be seen flying around vigorously among the trees and plants. After a rain when it shine they come out looking for what, flowers or lovers? They enjoy their short life to the utmost. Their multi-coloured wings and patterns on them are attractive; represent modern art. Nature is a wonderful artist. But why does Nature give the beautiful things short life? I feel pity for them. How can we change the Nature’s ways? Though they have got a speedy short life-span they are inclined to do the duty of this world. They mate, reproduce before they shed their wings to keep the existence of their species which is the first and foremost duty of this world. Butterflies are really wonderful also Nature is wonderful.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Shani Ki Sade-sati

In Vedic Astrology Sade-Sati is mentioned as this—the period since the Saturn’s entering into the sign just beofre the natal Moon sign and in next few signs after that sign. I don’t believe in that Sade-Sati. My interpretation is different. During the Saturn’s journey through the 12 constellations, Saturn will come in conjunction, square or opposition to your natal Moon or natal Saturn in every 7-8 years and stay in those signs for about 2 ½ years. Actually this is to be considered as Sade-Sati. Those 2 ½ years which, Saturn stays in your Moon sign or Saturn sign will be troublesome. According to the Saturn’s position and other planetary aspects in your natal chart, the impact of the transit is. I always say that when one has fate, his/her brain will work accordingly.

That is what happened to Andhra CM Rajashekhar Reddy. He was under Saturn’s transit since 2008. It was about to end by the end of this year. Before he could escape the bad phase, the messenger of death intruded in to his life and took a flight along with him. If he had waited to get over the Saturn’s transit, perhaps, he could have escaped this fate. The planetary alignment in his natal chart is seen slightly complicated. When the Moon’s phases advance the weather condition will be extremely bad.
Like father like son—YSR’s son Jagan Mohan Reddy inherits almost similar planetary aspects of his father. So he too is going through a bad phase now. That’s why he couldn’t make up his mind, despite having too many supporters to pamper him. He doesn’t seem confident enough to become CM and that too in the period of mourning of his father’s death normally he will lose confidence.

Most people travel in the Saturn’s transit more than they usually do. Some purposely travel or unavoidable circumstances will make them travel. People have to travel because of the work. In the Saturn’s transit the messenger of death will follow you everywhere without your consent. If you are patient and be cautious you can escape the bad phase unscathed.